Even If i Walk Alone

Instructing and encouraging you to live your life as a disciple of Jesus

commitment

The End of Indecision

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For too long we have gone back and forth about our commitment to Christ. One day we are fired up and nothing can deter us; the next we are self-absorbed, depressed and wondering if it’s all worth it. The inconsistency is killing our effectiveness and causing our lives to spoil. A mixture of hot and cold produces a lukewarm life, a life that Jesus said He will vomit out (Revelation 3:16). I believe I speak for all of us when I say that this is not the person I wish to be; I do not want to live a life so repulsive to Christ that He vomits it out. It’s time to decide, once and for all, where we will place our loyalties. Will we reach for all this life has to offer or will we place everything we have at the feet of the one who gave His life for us?

When we first committed our lives to Jesus we gave no thought to turning back. We understood we were new creations and therefore had been transformed to live differently. Over time we lose our enthusiasm; we allow our clean hearts to be polluted by the sin around us when we drink a little in. It’s not that we intend to turn away; we simply get lazy and let down our guard. We lose sight of the fact that there is a very real, very powerful battle waging for our soul. As physical beings we cannot see the battle, but our spiritual core can feel it. When we tune into the fray, we become aware of the ferocity and we determine anew to stand fast. Too often we live our lives tuned out, concerned only with the tactile realities of the here and now. We get caught up pursuing the American dream, and we succumb to the bombardment of messages from the media. We allow ourselves to drink in the dirty water.

The only way to remain vigilant is to consistently flush our souls with the pure living water of Christ. If we are not spending consistent time in prayer and studying His Word, we will become tainted and our effectiveness will be severely muted. I want my life to shout the love of Christ; I want to shake the world with His love and His message. The only way to accomplish these goals is to remain on purpose and on mission, all the time. An intentional, consistent walk is the only way that leads to victory. Remember the story of the tortoise and the hare? It wasn’t the brilliant bursts of the rabbit that won the race; he got lazy and caught up in his own selfish desires. No, it was the consistency and single-minded purpose of the tortoise that won the race. It is the same in our pursuit of Jesus. If we stay the course and keep our eyes focused on Him, we will accomplish what He has given us to do. Keeping our entire aim on His service while refusing to be distracted by the pleasures of this life will allow us to continue His mission and finish the race for His glory.

As long as we are given to a series of starts and stops, we will not be able to fulfill the purpose for which we were created. A lukewarm life will not get it done, and indeed may end with disastrous consequences. I don’t know how you read it, but being vomited out does not exactly sound like a grand welcoming into Heaven. Jesus calls us to total commitment, and that is exactly what we promised Him when we first surrendered our lives. We promised total devotion; we said that He would be our Lord and we would be His servant. This is not a casual vow; nothing could be more serious. Are we sincere or not? Do we love Him or are we just trying things out? It’s time to put away our indecision and once and for all give the rest of our lives to Christ and Christ alone. As Michael Tait sings in a recent Newsboys song, “I’m giving Him the best of/ Everything that’s left of/ The life inside this man/ I’ve been born again!” Let’s join in that pledge. Let’s give Jesus all we have for the rest of our lives. From this point forward our decision is clear and our path is focused. Let’s pledge to follow Jesus wherever that may lead. No more wavering, no more turning back.

What Now?

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What if you’ve fully surrendered your life to Christ and don’t know what to do next? It’s not as if life comes with neon directional arrows so you know which way to turn at any given moment. You’re ready to sacrifice everything for Christ and do whatever He asks; you simply aren’t certain what He’s asking. What about the talents He’s given you; is it okay to use them for endeavors that aren’t exactly in line with promoting His kingdom? Where do you draw the line? I’ve been battling many of these same issues recently, and I suspect I am not alone. These are weighty questions, and I most assuredly do not have all the answers; but I will share with you what I have been learning in hopes it may be of some help to you.

As followers of Christ, everything we do should be for His honor, for His glory, and to further His Kingdom. We are the servants of Jesus; we are His slaves. When we committed ourselves to Christ we relinquished all claim on our lives; we are His and He is ours. The life we lead for Him cannot be separated from the life we live for ourselves; they are eternally intertwined. No longer is there any concept of things we do for Him and things we do for our self. When determining what we should do with the gifts He has given to us, there is no choice other than to use them for His glory. If you are a singer, you must sing for Him; if you are a teacher, you must teach others about Him; if a craftsmen, use your creations to further His kingdom.

I realize these can seem like vague generalities, and it is most helpful to have concrete examples. Since I don’t know your situation or your gifts, I will attempt to articulate what this looks like in my own life. I have been given the ability to write, and writing in almost any genre comes easily for me. I now realize that all that matters is that I use this gift for Jesus. In my pursuit of earning a living as a full-time writer, I have recently had opportunities to go down paths that held the possibilities of cutting significant time from that goal. I could write for various interests and develop copy to sell the products of others. However, my overriding objective is to shake the world with the love of Jesus. These other opportunities would do nothing to show the love of Christ to my audience; they would simply enhance my own profile and marketability. I struggled with this decision for several days before coming to the conclusion that I must not pursue anything that will take additional time away from my definite chief aim of proclaiming the gospel of Jesus and encouraging others to live in total devotion to Him.

Living life solely for Christ will challenge our logic and alter our perception of things like possessions and economy. We may not obtain the comforts of this world, and we may never know financial security. The only thing we are guaranteed to acquire is increased persecution. The closer we get to Jesus, the more intense the attacks will become. It takes either a special kind of lunatic to pursue this life, or else it takes someone who is madly, deeply in love with Jesus Christ. I prefer to not place myself in the lunatic camp and instead endure whatever may come for the sake and privilege of loving and serving Jesus. I may not always be certain where the next step leads, but I do know that Jesus waits at the end of the road.

When I am not sure of what to do next, I fall back on the basic truths of being a follower of Christ. I am to pursue justice, feed the hungry and care for the poor and outcast. What can I do that will further that mission? This question brings clarity of purpose and helps refine our choices. I want to encourage others to give their lives fully to Jesus so that together we might impact the world and help bring about His kingdom here on earth. Are you struggling for direction or battling how best to use your gifts? Remember that everything you do must glorify God and further His mission. We are His slaves, and if we are sincere in our commitment, we will love every minute of it. Nothing fulfills a life like doing the work of Christ.

Spiritual Leaks

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I believe most people who decide to become followers of Jesus are very sincere in their desire. We all start out very excited and determined to follow Him; generally after making the commitment we are quick to tell others about our decision as well. Then life sets in and the day to day doldrums that encompassed everything we did before prove to have not magically disappeared. Our excitement may wane a bit as we find less and less time to devote to praying and studying the Bible. Convincing ourselves that our commitment will override the need for concentrated effort, we continue on our path, much as we did before giving our lives over to Jesus. It’s not that we intend to fall away or even that we are mired in sin; it’s simply that we’ve lost our focus, let down our guard, and allowed the pressures of life to steal our enthusiasm and our zeal. We’re drifting and we’re not even sure how it happened.

Like a tire with a slow leak, we can go about our way for quite some time without ever realizing there’s a problem. When we do notice something amiss, we read a good book or listen to some music to pump us back up and head out on our way again. But just as ignoring a tire with a slow leak will eventually leave us broken down with a flat somewhere in the middle of nowhere, so too will unattended spiritual leaks leave us feeling dissatisfied and wandering in the wilderness of life. A little slip here, a loss of focus there, and suddenly our once devoted life has succumbed to the temptations of the world and we are no longer living for Christ at all. It is vital that we do not let our guard down for even a moment; small cracks become big problems down the road if we don’t tend to them. As soon as we recognize we have gotten off course, we need to immediately repent and pray for direction to get back on the right path. It’s also important to take a few moments and reflect on how you got pushed off track. What deceptions and devices were used? Learning the tactics of the enemy will help you fend off future attacks and help you recognize your vulnerabilities; this informs you of the areas in your life that need improvement.

It’s rarely the huge, cataclysmic events that cause us to veer away from following Christ but rather the small, barely perceptible shifts of focus that are our downfall. It’s the friend who hurts our feelings and so we harbor a grudge; it’s the boss who squashes our enthusiasm until we decide to no longer excel and simply do an average job; it’s the everyday things in life that lead to discouragement, jealousy and anger. When you are experiencing emotions that are not part of God’s character, you are causing cracks to form in your life, cracks that allow the spiritual leaking to begin. Remember that no one can cause you to feel any of these negative emotions without your permission. You must discipline your mind to reject feelings that do not align with your purpose in life. If someone wrongs you, forgive them and move on. Life is too short to waste time dealing with the thoughts thrust upon us by others. We have a mission to carry out and have no time left to lose. Ephesians 5:15-17 tells us to make the most of the time because the days are evil so we should discern what the will of the Lord is. The will of the Lord is to put aside petty differences and to go into the entire world telling others about Jesus while serving those in need. That is how we are to live our lives.

Be careful about letting cracks form in your heart. Spiritual leaks are silent and insidious killers of the soul. Without diligent focus and attention to our emotions and reactions we can easily find our joy depleted and our lives broken down and useless. Constantly recharge yourself through prayer, study and associating with others who share your beliefs. Salve your wounds by serving others; there is no quicker way to patch a crack than to be about the mission to which you are called. Staying on purpose hardens our resolve and makes the cracks less likely to appear.

Are you suffering from spiritual leaks? Take an honest look at your life and ask God to patch the holes and get you back on the road toward pursuing Him. Mind your focus and steel your resolve; guard your thoughts and learn to improve the weak areas of your life. Preventing the cracks in the first place is the best defense against spiritual leaks.

Betting the Farm on Jesus

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As I began gathering my thoughts and praying about my goals for next year, I suddenly became aware of a very obvious but often underlying point. Everything I am considering, the core around which I am planning every action, is Jesus Christ. I have reached a point in my life where this is becoming as natural as breathing to me. No longer am I making plans based on what my whims and desires might be or setting my aspirations on making a significant amount of money. No, everything revolves around Jesus. My dreams are to do things that will draw others to him. My joy comes from the thought of freeing the oppressed and seeing the name of Jesus taught to all nations and people groups. I don’t say this to point out how much I’ve grown (indeed I would argue that having been a Christian for thirty-seven years now, my progress has been ridiculously slow), but rather to say that if Jesus is not who He said He was, I am basing my life on foundation of deceit and empty words. In other words, I’m betting the farm on Jesus.

I’ve been asked how I could possibly believe the things I do. The whole story seems rather fantastic and rather imaginary, does it not? I have also been told that it takes a lot of faith to believe the way I do. As Steve Taylor once penned in a lyric, “Don’t you know by now why the chosen are few? It’s harder to believe than not to.” It’s far easier to dismiss the Biblical message and the Gospel as a fanciful story written by suspicious men of days long past. It’s easier to live a life that is accountable to no one other than yourself. Who wouldn’t enjoy the thought that we should indulge in all of the best this world has to offer? Christianity is viewed as an archaic set of rules meant to limit our freedom and subject us to judgment. Couple this with a beginning that ultimately cannot be proven, and we see why so many laugh in the face of the Gospel.

I believe that reality is the exact opposite. While the story is truly fantastic, it is no less plausible and actually far more logical than any alternative the world has offered. When accurately studied, the whole of evolution is untenable and hopelessly ridiculous. I find that it takes far more faith to believe in the magic circumstances of primordial ooze and it’s equally fortuitous progression into human kind than it does to believe in creation by a loving God who possesses intelligence far superior to our own. I find the sacrifice of Christ on man’s behalf hard to fathom from the standpoint of what we deserve, but also see it in perfect harmony with the character of God revealed in Scripture. The last thing I find in a life of following Jesus is a lack of freedom. I have never felt so free or at peace as when I am seeking Him. I never found freedom in anything the world offered, only temporary satisfaction that was quickly exchanged for long term bondage. That is not freedom! The so-called rules of Christianity are actually things we choose to do out of love for our Lord. We don’t give up or miss out on anything. Instead we bask in the glory of the love of Jesus. I have seen Him answer prayer; I have lived a life that defies explanation outside of Divine intervention. I am not sorry for, nor doubtful of, what I believe.

So I’m all in. I am betting the farm on the truth of the claims of Jesus Christ. My life will mean nothing outside of Him. Every step I take, I take with the intent to follow Him. My goals and aspirations revolve around continuing His mission. My passion is to become the person He created me to be so that I might express His love to others and work for His justice in a broken and hurting world. This allows me to face the future with an invigorated attitude and confident direction.

In what are you placing your faith? Do you have a firm foundation on which to build your life? Are you convinced that Jesus is who He said He was? True hope, true freedom, are found only in Christ. Decide today to follow Him and give Him all of your life. Your dreams and desires are safe with God. Like me, you can feel confident on betting the farm on Jesus Christ.

The Remnant

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Another winter approaches, reminding me of the passing of one more year. I’m a year older and a year closer to my last breath. Have I accomplished all that Christ has put within me? This isn’t some mid-life crisis type of reflection; I have weathered that storm and come through on the other side somewhat unscathed. This is more about being sure that I am making the most of the minutes I have been given here on earth. Am I each day giving everything I have to the service of others and the mission of Christ? How about you?

Athletes and musicians devote years of their life in anonymous toil, perfecting their craft through countless hours of repetitive exercises. They are honing their skills with the end in mind, a purpose that drives them to persist through every trial and obstacle. In the end, their triumphs and their gifts, if not utilized to further the Kingdom of God, will mean little to human history. Yet their perseverance and raw determination, their relentless pursuit of a dream puts most of us to shame. We are invited to participate in the greatest mission ever known; we have been given the gifts and talents to make the dream a reality, yet we squander our opportunities through laziness and indulging in self-seeking activities that benefit no one and extract a great toll on our own lives.

If we do not gain an unrelenting focus to pursue that to which we are called, we will live lives of quiet desperation and die unfulfilled, unprepared, and unaware. That is not the life I wish to lead, and it is not the life for which I have been created. We hear the words over and over again, but are they sinking in? We know the things we should be doing, but are we engaging in those activities? We are the hands and feet of Jesus; we are His instruments of change. If we will not go into the world and fight for justice, if we will not feed the hungry and care for the sick, then who else will do it? Jesus is the light of the world and we are called to be His reflection. How much brighter would the love of God shine throughout the earth if each of us were properly tuned and polished so as to perfectly resonate and reflect that love to those around us? How brightly would that light shine if it were multiplied by the number of those who proclaim to know Christ? Our world is covered in darkness because we are a dim reflection of our Savior.

Every day that we are blessed to live we must set our minds on Christ and doing the things He commanded us to do. We must practice using our God-given gifts to hone our skills so that we might be ready to use them in any situation and every season. When we wake up each morning, it is imperative that we recognize the opportunity before us and greet the day with enthusiasm, knowing that we have been given the opportunity to join with Christ in building His Kingdom on earth. What could be more invigorating or exciting?

The truth is most of us will choose not to participate. Many who take up the call will become discouraged and fall away. But there will remain a few that will persist, a remnant that will stop at nothing to pursue the work that has been given them to do. I want to be part of that crowd. I want to share in the glory of God by refusing to turn away or give up. I want to seek Him with all that I am and use every last breath to tell others about His love and His mercy. In my own strength I will fail; alone, I will falter. My pledge is to desperately beg for His help, His strength and His power so that I might achieve the things for which I have been created. The remnant is small, but the remnant is able. Will you join with the few who will persist at any cost? The price is substantial, but the reward is beyond measure.