Even If i Walk Alone

Instructing and encouraging you to live your life as a disciple of Jesus

Incredible Love

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There are days when I cannot move. There are days when I am so overwhelmed by the love of God that I cannot make sense of anything else. This love is so inconceivable. Even in the worst of times, I am so incredibly blessed. I find myself with one simple question on my lips: “Who am I?”

As Israel Houghton wrote, “Who am I that you are mindful of me?” When push comes to shove, I am quite simply the world’s greatest screw-up. I have failed far more times than I have succeeded. I have fallen so often that I consider the ground one of my closest friends. Why does God take the time to care for me? Why does He take the time to constantly help me up every time I fall? What in the world is in it for Him?

That is the wrong question. It’s not about what’s in it for Him, but rather who He is. While it may be cliché in our modern age, the truth is God is indeed love. At His core, His very essence, God is love. It is who He is. Everything else flows from that love: justice, mercy, grace and righteous anger. God is all of these things and more, but ultimately He is the embodiment of perfect, unrelenting love. His love compels Him to constantly strive for each of us, to forever pursue us in order that He might lavish His love on us.

It’s too much. I cannot conceive of such love. In my own imperfection I have known love and I have shown love. But it is nothing compared to the love of our Savior. No matter how deeply we love our spouses or boyfriends or girlfriends, can we honestly say that every day we relentlessly pursue them for the single purpose of lavishing love on them? Do we forgive those we love as Christ forgives us? Are we willing to not simply overlook but to completely blot out their shortcomings? Jesus does this for us, and in so doing demonstrates a model of perfect love.

To consider such loves leaves me speechless and overwhelmed. I am truly and completely undone. He loves us in our weakness and imperfection. He loves us perfectly and completely. I never want to disappoint the one who loves me so much. I just want to serve Him with all that I am. Knowing I am loved in such a way, I cannot wait to fall down again. If I never fell, I would never know the warmth and acceptance of those arms that lift me up. It is in the failing that we learn and in the falling that we advance. It makes no sense, but then again, when was the last time love made sense to anyone? There is no logic here; there is simply mercy and grace. There is only love. Take a moment and bask in His love today.

Where Are You From?

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For many years growing up, I used to dread the inevitable, “Where you from?” question that came with introductions to new people. As a military “brat”, we moved around a lot. I had lived in three states and in three different countries before I ever hit first grade. While being exposed to different cultures and ethnic groups has forever shaped who I am today, in the early years I was left with somewhat of an identity crisis. These days, for the first time in my life, I have a solid handle on that dreaded “Where you from?” question.

One of the reasons I really struggled with the question earlier in my life stemmed from the fact that I didn’t really identify with any area or group of people. Today it’s the same, but I now understand the reason why. I am a follower of Christ, I belong to Him. I identify with Jesus. Spending time with Him is when I feel most at peace, when I feel at home.

Lately I can’t turn on the television or radio, much less pick up a newspaper, without being bombarded with the latest political argument of what it means to be an American. I hear arguments from both Christian and non-Christian friends, both trying to win me over to their point of view. I feel wonderfully disconnected, if not somewhat frustrated, from all the fuss. You see, I’m not from America. Sure, my birth certificate will tell you I was born on United States territory, but that is simply geography. I am extremely thankful to have been born in a country that has allowed me to express my opinion freely, and a country that has let me pursue a way of life of my own choosing. But make no mistake, I pledge my allegiance to the Creator God and to His Son who sacrificed His life for me. I do not pledge allegiance to a colorful rag, but rather to the blood stained robes of my Lord and Savior. I do not love any particular area of dirt, but will bow on any piece of land before my God.

If you ask me where I’m from, I will proudly and unashamedly tell you that I am part of the Kingdom of God. This is where I place my allegiance. How about you? Where are you from? With whom do you identify? The Bible makes it clear that we cannot serve two masters. We can’t serve “God and country”, because our country will most assuredly come into conflict with God. Whom then will you choose? Do you boast in your country of origin or in your true place of origin? God created you with specific talents and abilities, intended for use according to His purpose. All that we have and all that we are originated with God. We are from Him, not any plot of soil. Do you show God the same allegiance you do to your country? If not, it’s time to choose this day whom you will serve.

Your Action Plan

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How do we get there from here? How do we go from the life we are living today to one that is sold-out, wholly devoted to living the way of Christ? All of us can do a better job of loving others. Each of us can grow closer to Christ than we are today.

We need a plan. Attempting to achieve anything without a plan is a recipe for futility. Take stock of where you are today. Take fifteen minutes to sit down and write down the areas of your life that you know do not reflect Jesus. Pray and ask God to bring to mind areas in which you fall short of His design for your life. Are you self-absorbed? Are you embarrassed to tell others about Christ? Do you look the other way when someone is in need of help? How do you treat your family, is it with the same love that God showers on you? How about your neighbors, do they know you love them? Do you even know them? I don’t know what areas in your life need work; we all have different strengths and weaknesses. Take the time to get away from everything else and just hash out your areas of weakness. Make sure you don’t just ponder these areas, write them down! Some will come quickly to your mind; others will be more subtle and may even surprise you. Take the time to get it all off your heart. Listen for God to reveal your weaknesses to you. This isn’t about making you feel badly or inadequate; this is simply you taking an inventory so you can devise the best plan possible to overcome each and every weakness.

Once you have your list, take another fifteen minutes to write down one to three actions you can take to overcome that area of weakness. We’re not going to become strong in every area overnight, we’re not even going to try and tackle them all at once. But we do need a plan, and by thinking through your action steps now, it will be easier later on when you work on eliminating that weakness from your walk. Again, take the time to get this right, and get it down on paper. Get alone in silence or with some relaxing music if that helps. Put aside any distraction, and just spend the time prayerfully determining ways you can look more like Christ. There is little that pleases God more than for us to seek Him. Just listen and He will tell you what you need to know.

So there you have it; it only took thirty minutes of your day to determine how you can change your life to look more like that of Jesus. You’re on your way to becoming a true follower of Christ. You have a genuine plan of action, and that feels great. There is, of course, one caveat. To begin with a great plan gives you a tremendous boost to becoming the person God intended you to be. But when it’s all said and done, your great plan will remain just that unless you follow it up with action. Remember those action steps you came up with? Yeah, you’re going to actually have to do those things if you want a life that looks like Christ. You’re going to have to get out of your comfort zone, you’re going to have to love people you can’t stand and you’re going to have to sacrifice your time and money to help those in need. A plan without action is no better than lungs without air. It’s up to you to bring meaning to your plans.

Are you willing to follow up on your own action plan? If you’ve completed this exercise, you can see your weaknesses written down in black and white. You can also see the steps you know you need to take to better follow Christ. It’s all there in front of you; you can live the life God intended for you to live. Do you have the guts to trust Him to help you follow through? Are you willing to give up those things that have no place in the life of a follower of Christ? Are you ready to love at any cost and embark on the adventure of your lifetime? We have but one life to live; take action to make yours a life of love and become a true follower of the Way.

Tendrils

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John White once wrote that we must “detach our tendril hopes from crumbling walls in order to train them to climb solid Rock”.  It strikes me as lunacy that I would continue to endeavor in anything that is not of Christ.  We know that there is nothing on earth that will ever satisfy us the way His love can.  We strive to achieve fortune or fame, but to what end?  History is littered with lives of extravagant people who in the end died lonely and broken.  Is this what we desire?  Jesus promises comfort, unqualified acceptance and love.  All He asks in return is that we trust and follow Him.  How can we discard such a simple, yet fantastic, offer?

Are we so shallow that we can’t bear to give up anything that might make us feel better for a fleeting moment in exchange for that which fulfills for a lifetime (and then some!)?  We are well educated, well studied and well equipped to understand this truth better than perhaps anyone in history.  But what do we do with this knowledge but let it lie in waste?  It is a tragedy of truly epic proportions.  We understand the message of Jesus Christ, but we refuse to act upon it.  We fully comprehend the meaning and the consequences, but still we turn away.

What can one say to this generation, what would the prophets of old say to we who live in this age?  Each day we drive away from beautiful homes in our fancy cars (even having access to a car is inconceivable in parts of this world) to our well paying jobs or leisurely activities.  Every day we drive past someone who is in need.  Every day we drive past someone who could use some good news and some love.  We drive on, oblivious to the world and need around us.  We drive on, wrapped up in the petty annoyances in our own lives.  We are selfish, thoughtless and unloving people.

Maybe at this point you are annoyed.  Maybe you are thinking that you’re not as bad as all that.  You give to your church and even drop off some canned goods at the food pantry.  You hold the door for elderly folks.  Why, you even helped a blind person across the street once!  Do you do it consistently?  Do you stop every time there is a need?  Do you give love without expecting anything in return, even to those you despise?  We all fall so very short.  We cling to those things in the world that bring us status and nods of approval, and they will all crumble to dust in the end.  If we aren’t securely fastened to the solid rock of Jesus Christ and His love, we don’t stand a chance.  If we aren’t demonstrating His love in real, tangible ways, and doing so every day, we don’t stand a chance.  Our only hope is to anchor ourselves to God’s rock-solid foundation of love.  As we grow, we must cling so tightly to his love that we become one with it.  Anything else falls short and misses the mark.

What are you reaching toward for stability, where do you get your strength?  Is it from the flash and glitz of this world or is it from the rock steady love of God?  We reach out to something every day; the choice is ours.  Only one choice brings hope, peace, meaning, and ultimately, security.  Why do we reach for that which cannot protect our life, instead of reaching out to the One who gives us life?  What are your tendrils wrapped around?  Whatever it is is it safe?  Is it secure?  Only God has a foundation that can be trusted, one that will allow us to climb in freedom, safety and security.  Wrap your arms around Him, feel His love, then go and share it with everyone you meet.

Are You a True Follower?

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What is your motivation?  Why do you do what you do?  As followers of Christ, our answer to those questions must simply be ‘Jesus’.  Any other answer is unacceptable.  If any part of us seeks to glorify ourselves, we cannot call ourselves a follower of Jesus.  Following Christ is all or nothing.  We must give everything we have for Him or it simply isn’t going to be enough.  Can you say that in the depths of your heart, even when you falter, your one goal is to love God and follow the way of His Son?

If you can answer yes to the question above, welcome to the greatest adventure.  But before we embark, let’s make sure we’re being honest with ourselves.  Two simple tests will determine if we are indeed who we say we are.

The checkbook test: The first test is to take a look at your checkbook.  Where are you spending your money?  If you are spending more money on entertainment and comfort items than you are investing on building the kingdom, you cannot honestly call yourself a follower of Christ.  Followers of Christ are generous with their money and think more of others than themselves.  How can we say we care about the poor and homeless when we live in homes with four flat screen televisions and three cars?  It makes no sense.  This is why Jesus said it was so hard for a rich person to enter heaven (Mark 10:17-31).  Sometimes when we have a lot, we forget our responsibility is to give even more.  If we can’t honor God with our finances, we can’t honor Him with our life.

The time diary test: For two weeks, keep a time diary, a journal of how you spend your time.  Record, in thirty minute intervals, how you spend your time.  Feel free to adjust the time interval to suit your personality; but recording shorter intervals can be tedious, leading to frustration and eventually giving up.  Recording in longer intervals pretty much guarantees you will lose details and leave out some forgotten items.  At the end of your two weeks, add it all up and see where you are spending the majority of your time.  How does God rank?  Where do you spend more time, with God or with your television?  Do you spend as much time helping others as you do playing video games or playing sports?  Do you spend more time eating than feeding others?  Remember, following Jesus means sacrificially giving up our lives to love and serve others.  How does Jesus rank in your time diary?

If you failed either test (or even both), there is good news.  First, the very fact that you took the time to examine your life proves you have a strong desire to live your life as a true follower of Christ.  Second, it’s not too late to make the changes necessary to pass both of the above tests.  Do you want to be a true follower of Jesus?  It’s within your power.  Love God and pray for His power in your life to help you live it in a manner pleasing to Him.  Then, make the change.  Don’t wait, don’t put it off.  You only get one shot at living this life.  Make sure you live it as a follower of Jesus.